A* HOLE

i was an asshole, unfortunately, i didnt see the most beautiful thing in front of me and i went with my friends.

take whatever ive written down on this blog as a token of promise that whenever i disappoint you or have neglected one way or another. and show it to me that ive lose track of what is beautiful in front of me.

im just a boy trying to impress a girl. hoping that she would love me, and take me as i am.

i was foolish, but im a fool no more.

it is times like this where i build up my character to become a better person for you.

because at the end of the day, i still want to come home to big brown eyes and lovely smile. which will melt my stone heart and make me human again.


remember, show this to me, so that i can become a better man for you.

90th post

after some chat, it feels real good to clear things up!

thanks.=))

on another note, few simple things ive forgotten along the way. it's rather fun to discover them back.=))

well, school has finally started again, and im not looking forward to it at all. although the modules this time round is much more easier than i thought, but the idea of reading the books again, rushing projects deadline and so on really turns me off.

on top of that i have to bear with many things hidden within the realms of the class. the politics and so on is really getting on my nerves. however, i chose to remain mum over it since i have nothing to concern with. on the contrary, the looks of it sometimes gives me a feeling of plunging in to help everyone in this heap of mess. then again, be wise is the right to do.

holiday on the other hand was great though. bought loads of items. it was shopping, good food and more shopping. and of course with no one else but my dearest. bought our watches, clothes for the new sem and many more which is beyond description. in a nutshell, it was the company that matters most.=))

was wanting to go for a swim today, however, the rain man hasnt be any nice to me. when im done packing and preparing to leave. thunder strike. guess i have to postpone the swimming trip to who knows when.

eraser

i dont really know how to bring this up.
all i know now is that im a eraser.
the reason i say this is because im more of the death bringer.
i have been erasing those pretty smiles off your face, when i have yet to look at it carefully.
and you still have to put up a false front to assure that nothing is wrong.
im sorry for making you do all this and making you feel this way.
i wish i could do the direct opposite.
and perhaps i should be like you, priortise.
i dont want to see another you like this anymore.
i want to see a happy you once again, forever