emo?..

was having an internal struggle with myself a few minutes ago. when it comes to things of the heart, one needs to emo for max 2 days and will be over it. apparently, i cant heed my own saying totally though.

cyclical emo-ing is really quite amazing. im truly amazed by it. after nearly 3 weeks of excellent health, it can pounce on you, just when your mana reserves are negligible. guess it takes a constant effort to maintain one's sanity, but rather glad that it's easier to contain and maintain nowadays.

but i must say the feeling of getting hanged in between is the worst ever. though it may be vital and enriching learning platform, but im never keen to visit it.

departures

often then not, we wait till the very end, only to look back in anguish and horror.
how many times have we let pettiness over-ride and over-whelm us?..

what is what?

simple quote i got off a show today.

there is no fear when one expects to be betrayed.
what is truly terrifying, is when betrayal is unexpected.

sleep on it

big picture, minor details.

i've seen and piece the bigger picture together now.
however, i shall not forget about the minor details, everyone has their part to play.
i have mine, and i shall not screw things up.


thanks

useless

it seems futile.
having the ability to achieve it is a great feeling i must say.
however, the capability to fulfill the purpose of this achievement seems as though it doesnt exists in the first place.
it seems like everything is so futile. like it has never happened.
regretting is one issue, not fulfilling is another one.
im in doubts about fulfilling either, it seems no purpose having to achieve it in the first place.

to sum it all up

first i got my coveted license

then i worked in the IT show


not much feeling left to say. tired seems to be the only right now, although i should be resting and all. but i feel energetic yet not. what irony...

TP

in a few moments i will be off to take my driving TP.
i shall be make it a point that i will get it the first time.
well, Singapore, be careful because here comes a soon to be road hazard.=))

its around 1445hrs at my test, however, since i had an early night yesterday. im awaked now not knowing what to do and im staring into blank space while listening to POD. this can be so boring at times yet so relaxing, if you get what i mean.

im still contemplating whether to go down for the set up later at suntec city. yes, the IT show starts tomorrow, and im actually not really feeling any stress as the event draws nearer. most people would be the direct opposite, however, i guess these are signs that im rather prepared for it? then again, im afraid by the time im almost done with driving which i hopefully can pass, it will be around 4 or 5? because of the admin works, seriously i hate admin works.=))

anyway, back to more staring into the blank space.=))

Will You - POD

See you sittin' next to the window in the bedroom
She breaks down - breaks down
Crying over something and starin' into nothin'
Afraid now - hate now
Wanting, needing, haunting, it's killing me
Faking what has happened to live the life like that man
I'll break down - It's fake now

Will you, will you love me tomorrow?
So Will You, Will you stay with me today?

Fade in and out of reason to fight the way she's feelin'
She breaks down - breaks down
Going through the motions and holding onto hopes
and her dreams now - somehow
Shaken, mistaken, forsaken, it's killing me.
Wishing you could change, but he's always been this way
If you leave now - I'll drown

Will you, will you love me tomorrow?
So Will You, Will you stay with me today?
Will you, will you be here tomorrow?
So Will You, you remember yesterday?

Yesterday! Yesterday!
Yesterday! Yesterday!

This time, I'm sorry
This time, I'm sorry
This time, this time, I'm sorry for this time
This time, this time, I'm sorry
This time I'm sorry!

Will you, Will you love me tomorrow?
So Will You, Will you stay with me today?
Will you, Will you be here tomorrow?
So Will You, you remember yesterday?

Will you? [x6]
So Will You?
Will you? [x6]

through your very eyes

integrity.

you once said never to doubt it and here i am, at a crossroads.

am i to believe in the words you once uttered and cling on to your integrity or dont believe them and fail in my own judgement?

trust, integrity, friendship. the very words you speak of, and the very actions i cannot see. i hear the total opposite of what came out of the very lips once touched.

the power of intention, energy, folding time, strength and comfort.
at the end of the day, im a rocket in the sky.

THIS COMING IT SHOW....

well, was talking to zg-san just now.
it all came down to only one conclusion.

IT'S GONNA BE FUN.

FUN!
乐趣!
楽しみ!
plaisir!
der Spaß!
divertimento!

so please let me enjoy myself...
cant wait for the fun to begin

anyway, thanks to zhenguang for the sharing the fun thoughts, let us enjoy this game shall we bro?

this is lame

fun eh?

i heard its for fun, i hear it isn't
answer only one shall know.
choosing to believe is another thing,
however, ignorance sometimes may be bliss.

things has gone this way,
no one would expects it today.
where we are now,
is what we have done.
no point blaming this and that,
because it is not fun.

blessings and prayers is the most stupid things one have done,
but one hopes this will help in long run.
what the future holds,
no one really knows.
tell me, do you really hate?
is it to the core?
doesn't it means anything?
do one still care?
does another one know?
do one really have to go?
only time will know...


...every one is the architect of their own future
ya, i know its link-less.=))

most notable thing i've done today.

-eating a bar of chocolate and also a cup of milk