this weekend

was at causeway point working.
i must really agree that children are the best thing on earth, seriously. i know i may sound a sissy talking about this. but its really a darn true fact that they are the best things.

when they laugh, adults, parents in particular wonder why their child laugh and smile at objects and stuffs which they think its lame. however, i beg to differ, the kids just find the most profound joy in the simplest things on earth.

sometimes i just really wish i can be like them. the way they look at things and react to it is really amazing. i dont really have an explanation as to why im feeling this way but i feel kind of peaceful. they just amaze me in many different ways.

think its time i should start shooting again. to capture everything from a kid's perspective. this shall be my project for this year 2009. will be back to post a lot of results.

random thoughts again... ...

was at the bus stop with ikram..
then the thought came to my mind...

my question to you...

time will heal?
did time had a chance to heal your heart?
or is it just numbers counting down to a new start?

my heart froze

i would like to take a short sentence off from wendee's blog.=D
thanks wendee for putting it on her blog so that i can rip.
this is the feeling now..=D


Pump my heart again pls! Eyecandyyyyyyyyy when will we meet again? *shy* hahahaha.


and a picture, inspired by angels and demons
done by ikram. cheers to that..

i didnt knew about this...till today...

one didnt expect there are so many things left unsaid.

readers, if there is any, you all must be wondering why one is in such a emo state now. well, all one can say is that google is a very good tool. there are so many things which one overlooked till google showed one 5 mins ago.

one really have got to thank google. one has realised that one's fault all along looms over her. in a way, giving her unnecessary tension when she already had enough. however, there is nothing as to what one can do, because it has all become what one cant do.

one believes that there isnt any chance to correct those mistakes. because the shutdown button has been clicked. to be precise, one dont really know what you are doing, but one dont have a good feeling about this. one dont know why and dont question one, if you ever do.

one have done my part by keeping mum about what we've said the other time. one believes one have made a wise choice. but whether or not it is going to stay as one is still a rather big question mark you see. one is not trying to imply anything on anyone because 'you reap what you sow'. no point blaming, no point judging nor findings mistakes because it is going to make things worse.

all one can say is that, do what you feel is necessary. if it means blocking and avoiding one, one would gladly accept the change. because of one reason, this is life. it aint going to wait. make the fullest of everything you do. take care of yourself if you can and dont let work stress the hell out of you because you cant really deal with your burn out.=))


no worries, one is still doing fine.=))
worry not, one is not furious about anything.
is just that tinge of regret one has caused it to oneself? perhaps?=D

#150

never did i expect my milestone post to be talking about this.

never did i expect it to go back into the Tommy Hilfiger box. then again, out of sight and out of mind, no? if that is your decision, i have to respect it.

when will it ever get to see daylight again remains a question mark which only you know the answer. although i wish to know it too but i guess i wont have the chance already.


i hope you are reading this though=D

post: angels

well, im officially back from my first blood donation, and im still feel rather awkward about it.

anyway, the process was very long, we have to do survey and check our bodies and many more other things which took up our lunch time which resulted in a very late lunch. however, the overall experience was fulfilling and full of achievements, knowing that your blood will pick 3 person's life back from hell is rather amusing.

managed to donate a least a pack full. although zg was speaking that i didnt, however, im quite sure that i did. the awkward part is that i almost fainted towards the end of the donation. yes, sheng almost fainted, i mean come on im also a human and i do have my weakness. not that im afraid to see blood, it is just that i didnt regulate my breathing according to zg. he probably be saying that im weak and all.

they didnt allow any photo taking so i didnt take much photos. im rather disappointed that they dont even allow me to take a picture of my own blood. then again, it is a good experience. and im proud to say im no longer a blood-donation virgin. speaking of that, they gave both of us a sticker which tells them to be gentle as this is our first donation. it is quite cute though.


heres some pics... ...

pre: angels

initially, i was thinking of doing this entry after ive finished what i started out to do for today. it was a very random 'mission' which zg and me thought of while roaming the streets of dhoby.

it so happened that the both of us met up and went to watch movie. obviously, it is ron howard's angels and demons, you cant expect us to watch ramen girl rite? regarding the movie, the plot were good and the climax is there. somehow the ending was within everyone's calculation? want to know why i say that? then spend 6 bucks to go catch the movie yourself.=D

and since we are talking about angels and demons, it fits the context of what im going to do later with zg. although ive never been an angel throughout my life or anyone else's life, however, it is all going to change. im going to donate blood later. yes, it is very amusing to hear something like this coming from me. it was a shared idea between zg and me. the random-ness of this thought is that it just came naturally yesterday, but we couldnt afford to sacrifice the movie since we have bought the tickets beforehand. therefore, zg, being a justice, told the ladies over at the booth that we will come back tomorrow which is today. so zg will keep his promise and i will go along with him.

and there you have it, my first blood donation. although i must say zg wasnt really the ideal person that i want to do this with. no hard feelings zg, its just a feeling. but nevermind, we had alot of first times together didnt we?=))

choices

today met up with old man and went for 'patrolling' with him
went to various places but didnt show face.
spent quite sometime around millenia walk, didnt realise it is such a nice place, although it is kinda out of the way for many things when you have suntec city by your side.=D

so was aimlessly looking around before settled down with old man to discuss some issues. he gave me an insight as to certain things, and i must say, everyone has to brace themselves. be careful is another factor because we do not unnecessary trouble.

all i can say now is, if i have to stop certain things even if it means compromising memories. i dont think i will hesitate to do it since many things meant nothing much now isnt it?

however, i do not wish to go till that extend, because the aftermath is rather scary.

so what is your say? you have choices...

crunch

i dont mean anything
but whatever you are going through
just be careful ya?

reason being is that
im not having a very good feeling about it
however i maybe wrong
it is up to you to believe though

so ya
be careful
cheers

here is gone

and i
wanted to be
all you need

somehow here is gone