seriously, you really have some issues...

this post is actually overdue. it was suppose to be written last night, but i dont know why suddenly blogspot had a little hiccup and i cant access to write a new post last night.

this post is to whom it may concern. if you feel that im talking about you. call me and lets talk.

i am very sure that ive hardly gave you any problems since we first met back in dec 06. up till today, im pretty sure that ive stayed out of alot of troubles. yet, you still have some issues with me? come on, how childish can you be? you already have a spouse and yet you are acting like as if im your big brother. if you have real issues with me, just come directly to me. you dont have speak behind my back and im serious about it.

frankly, ive always respected you in the first place, i dont know when you started to have issues with me. is it because of respect? have i not given you enough? if thats what you want from it, earn it. im giving no respect to no one until that bugger has duly earn it. likewise, i want to earn respect too, ive done my fair share of things and i think you should too.

what is power? position? i heard that last night that you said all these words about me, i am very pissed off by you. then again, why should i even bother to go and argue with you such things. old man has say to me not once, but multiple times, as long you got nothing against your guilty conscience, you dont have to worry. it has been stuck in my head and i dont understand why it didnt stuck in yours despite you spending most of life with him comparing to mine, talk about blood is thicker than water. you can say whatever you want about me, which you have already done quite abit. it is just that im told to stay cool or else i wont have lasted that long. i think im quite a krptonite to you ya? i think that is the only conclusion i can derive from your intentions of trying to get rid of me...

before i finish this post, i would like to say that im aiming for no ones position. what im doing is purely and merely helping out. if you cant see this clearly enough, i think you seriously need a new pair of specs

and dont be like a kid again, pls? it actually disgusts me alot. mada mada dane

to that kid

if you can go till the extent of removing one from facebook, there is only a few conclusions i can make. either you are so darn free to search for my name in it or you are just that childish.

no one has to bother how i manage to find out. all i can say is that, neither am i blind nor deaf. so dont treat me like one. however, if i have to treat you like a little kid then i would rather not waste my time. go do what your mummy tell you, and dont be acting like 'punk', thinking you are a 'soldier'.=)) (if you understand that is)

i mean no harm. because if there is any friendship to talk about then ive really surprise at how you use to act out those maturity back then. and how you become this selfish just like what your hate tag say the previous time.

so you better take a step to prepare yourself, cause the way you living now, aint good for your health.

Dont bother translating it...

hai dee, rao lerk peua bpaet deuan laew. a-deet kwaam roo-seuk yang kong. wan nee, chan yang mai roo tam-mai ter song hai bpai. duay kong dtaang boo-root?

chan mee naa bok jao hua ok ja gliang soon. ter rak krai laew. chan ya kao jai tam-mai chan pae hai kao. dtae, chan ja mai koie saap het pon kwaa? wen dtae ter kor kwaam chan dton nee, dai chai mai mee taang. yaang rai gor taam, chan yang uay pon ter hai dee. dtae, chan yang kit waa ter goo. ter bok ter rak chan dta-lot bpai, dtae mong dtrong puak rao dton nee!! rao woot-wit roo dtor gan. hai kon dieow gaan kui.

dtae, kop koon ter, chan dtang krai tam jao chee-wit mee kwaam maai eek. chan roo-seuk tee ter chai dee gwaa koon maak maai. tang-tang tee chan kit fan-feuang puak rao daai bpen gan. dtae, chan yin-dee kao gap ter. ter naam dton gap L. kit taa koon daai. hahas..

laa gon, dtae chan wang waa mee tee sam-rap eek.


please dont translate it, it's meant for personal reading. thanks.

another 24hrs

looking back at certain few entries, only somethings just bring me that low.

life is a daily buzz.

however, ive something to look forward to each day. then again, it may not be pleasant either sometimes.


not even just a sms?..=((

after the IT show, its back to more and more school work.
before i start, i would like to wish my dear friend Bruce aka my partner in Alpha, good luck on your enlistments.

coming to the PC show, i already know it is impossible for Alpha to hit target. not trying to say anything but it is really the truth. tell me, when you have only one model to sell comparing to other brands, how you gonna do it? never hit what i set for myself personally but then it was having fun playing with A900. i think im kind of poisoned by it. going to post up some pictures by it soon when i get a CF card reader.

on a lighter note, the PC show also helped me to regain certain things. ive never expected it to deal such a big impact on me, but it already has. everytime eye contact is established, it somehow is the peace within the chaos in my life. dont question, it is just that feeling which ive lost it but now ive found it back again.

however, im also afraid at the same time that things may not go my way. after recovering from the initial setback, i think im just still that feeble to receive another one. some say follow your heart while the others gave a clear no. kind of confuse and it needs to be sorted fast enough.

a meant to be joke...

today rl told me something which he meant it as a joke which has a tinge of truth in it.

"s is past tense. l is future tense."

kinda stuck in my head i guess...

to a certain extent today i dont really know what is really going on. everything just come and go with a snap of a finger. im rather surprise actually.

wish i could say hi, but i doubt there is a chance till i dont know when. i took notice of that black shirt initially, however, i think the brown shirt wasnt too striking to seek enough attention. then again, it maybe acting oblivious about it.

im not trying to be emo or wad, it is just that sudden feeling which i couldnt find any channel to purge it out. so i resort to my blog to see if there are any kind souls out there whom i can share my feelings with.

anyway, your birthday is coming this thurs, here's wishing you a happy birthday. enjoy it to the fullest.=))

dont write me off just yet...

まだまだ だね

im rather feeling weird about what happened today in class. i must say the comment received wasnt ideal and also not what i had in mind. it was fine in the beginning after that it wasnt pleasant to hear at all.

i didnt realise it was that serious all along. despite hearing many advices to tone it down, it doesnt seems to be working. it has also indirectly cost me something which ive held so dearly back then.

then again, if i change, will i still be the sheng? frankly, im confused. perhaps i can never change for the better?...