unappreciative?..

there is gradual but growing feeling which i cant pin-point. is it an avid sense of dissatisfaction or is it more like the feeling of being unappreicated?

pondering over, i guess i found the answer to it. but then again, if i will probably get slammed for getting my expectations wrong again. though in some sense, its all about giving without expecting to return, however, im very much human. that makes it increasingly difficult to do as such.

being busy is relative. i admit i use it as a shield sparsely as well, but when its abused by others once too many times, it does get exceedingly sickening and makes one question things. makes me wonder was all that from previous time a bunch of superficial lies. or maybe just different priority eh.

loud voice and lame excuses are a daily source of alarm that breaks the tranquility of the night. it makes me wonder is obstinateness the most capable thing he is capable of, and maybe in 30 odd years time, i be similar. though i very much hope not.

i definately need to rest more. =/