verbalising

seriously, let me verbalise my emotions thats overflooding me right now.

i know i should be getting ready, should be organising, should be feeling 'enthusiastic' about doing my projects. but much as i thought i was okay, thought that i was feeling good, much as i thought i was going on with life. the truth is, i aint.

i dont give a damn about pride and ego anymore.

i still miss you.

after all these time looking around confused and tired banging against walls, and crying out even. soothing myself, i thought i finally succeeded. until i read.

i really dont know what is going through for you, but i can feel it. i just hope to be there to alleviate. it is not that i dont care, but my fragile heart and minute confidence just cant take no more frost blast from you, cant take anything to complete this decimation.