im rather feeling weird about what happened today in class. i must say the comment received wasnt ideal and also not what i had in mind. it was fine in the beginning after that it wasnt pleasant to hear at all.

i didnt realise it was that serious all along. despite hearing many advices to tone it down, it doesnt seems to be working. it has also indirectly cost me something which ive held so dearly back then.

then again, if i change, will i still be the sheng? frankly, im confused. perhaps i can never change for the better?...