retiming..

was planning to regurgitate all the swirls and whirls in my mind these past few days, but i have decided to held back and keep it short. i should really go with the flow, as my mum would always say. and more importantly, to stop trying so hard. but its alot easier said than done. i should have commit, and pulling back is so much harder than i ever want to admit. but in some sense, i do hope it's really working. yet in those aplenty moments of weakness, it comes back to haunt. every little things and actions, which have so profoundly affected me, lingers on everywhere.

i take too much notice and take much unnecessary heed of things / words. but i cant really help it. i cant shut out and ignore. to pretend not to see?

its time to cool off, to chew slowly and to release.