was thinking about what one of my friend always say when someone approaches him for help.

need help i call you brother, dont need help i call you FUCKER.

to a certain extent it is rather true. on the contrary, we just dont want to see that, we just want to feel that sense of achievement to help. only at the end then we realized that it has all been a hoax since the start. im just rather surprised and disappointed at times at how things goes. for a moment you thought were doing the right thing, then vice versa the next minute.

one cannot blame others for anything that one has received. the truth is that all those being received is what one has sowed in the past. and what you reap is what you sow. so an apple will always be an apple, no matter how much you try to change to a orange or a lemon.

anyway, one has to begin to start reaping for the future now, so that one can receive not only just apple. but also oranges and lemons in the future. perhaps one day, one can open up a fruit juice store somewhere.